Hello Everyone!
Greetings from
the-sun-always-comes-again-no-matter-how-crazy-the-storm-is Colorado!
Literally, and spiritually that's how I feel.
The weather has been stormy and so have I. But... there is
light. There is hope. I want to quote Mama Sheri. She told me
a bad attitude is like a flat tire - you can't go anywhere until you change
it. Thanks mama. It's true... there are some things that I can
change to try and find joy in the journey now.
Happiness won't only come when I have so many teaching
appointments I don't ever have time to knock on a single door. Happiness
won't only come when the members are giving us referrals every day and we don't
have time to contact them all. Happiness won't only come when I see
people enter the waters of baptism. Sure, those things WOULD bring
happiness. But until then, why don't I just enjoy being happy now.
Ok, if you insist. :)
Some tender mercies... in the middle of one of the
saddest days I've had, Heavenly Father put a lot of butterflies in my
path. I hadn't seen many since my first transfer, but this week I've seen
multiple every day... even to the extent that after a guy cussed us out for
asking if we could pray with him, the next house had a butterfly doorbell
button. That was a tender mercy. Heavenly Father took the time to
send a little dainty butterfly to flit right on past me as if to say "I
love you. Keep going. I know your potential. I'm hearing
you. I'm mindful of you. I'm sorry you're sad, but just keep
smiling" He is SO good.
Also, in humility and almost desperation one night I
prayed that as we walked around the apartment buildings that the Lord would
lead us to people/ lead people to us because I'm just me. I'm weak... I don't
know where they are.. but He does. So with the attitude of "I'll
talk to EVERY single person I see" the Lord led us to people... one of
those people was a lady I had previously met but had failed to get her
information so I didn't know where to find her... well the Lord had other
plans. She said she doesn't usually walk home that way...
coincidence? I think not! And also we met a lady who has a lot of
LDS friends and she was very receptive of meeting with us... that was a
miracle!!!
I know the Lord is there and that He listens... I know
that even more so after feeling like He wasn't necessarily talking back to me
for the past few weeks. He has let me struggle... and I think He is
allowing me to be shaped up and fine-tuned... and I'm grateful. But I
KNOW that He loves me, and He is listening to every heartfelt and tear stained
prayer I've prayed.
I love this work, and I love the Lord! I love
the Atonement! It is real!!!! I love you all. I miss
you, and I think about the happiness you have brought to my life and I
smile! Thank you for everything!!!
Onward Christian Soldiers!!
From me to you, Kinzie Lou
here is a picture of the silver lining.
here is my favorite picture of the Savior... being the
Light amidst that stormy sea.
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